Nothing more, nothing less than a list of things to stay alive for. Maybe something will resonate with you.

1. Roast dinners – especially carveries.
2. You’re not alone, even when it feels like it
3. Wine
4. The sunrises you haven’t seen yet
5. Cuddles when you really need them
6. The people you’ve yet to meet who will love you deeply
7. Backrubs
8. Songs that will one day feel like they were written just for you
9. Hair stroking
10. Rainy days with warm blankets and hot drinks
11. Cats
12. The smell of fresh coffee
13. Dogs
14. Hugs from someone who really cares
15. Guinea pigs
16. Finding a book that changes how you think
17. Reading a book, and it completely changes your entire personality for a short while because you were really taken in by the main character
18. Horses
19. Crying until you laugh
20. Cows
21. Road trips with friends
22. Loud music
23. Freshly baked bread
24. Getting that task done, that you’ve been putting off for so long, and it wasn’t so bad
25. Shopping in a foreign supermarket
26. Stargazing
27. Unexpected kindness from strangers
28. Taking a packet of crisps to your hotel to eat on the balcony wrapped in a towel after an afternoon shower
29. Finding beauty in the little things
30. The smell of freshly cut grass
31. That one pet or animal who sees your soul
32. Walking into your kitchen and realising you (or someone you live with) did the washing up so it’s nice and clean
33. Creating something that didn’t exist before you
34. An empty email inbox
35. Dancing like no one’s watching
36. Your employer telling you you’re valued
37. Bonfires and the sound of crackling wood
38. Getting paid your worth
39. Seeing someone smile because of you
40. Learning something new
41. Becoming someone’s safe space
42. Reading a new book by an author you love
43. The taste of strawberries
44. Watching a new film
45. Holiday traditions
46. That moment you realise you’re healing
47. Seeing your family grow their own families
48. Reconnecting with an old friend
49. Enjoying a chocolate bar
50. Learning something new that excites you
51. A warm bath on a cold day
52. Watching the clouds move
53. A cool shower on a hot day
54. Singing in the shower
55. Getting lost in a great TV series
56. Feeling rain on your skin
57. The smell of rain after it’s been dry for a while
58. Feeling the warmth of the sun on your skin
59. Trying a new recipe, and it becomes your new favourite meal
60. Falling in love
61. The clean feeling after a full shower
62. Growing into the person you’re meant to be
63. That smoothy smooth feeling when you shave your legs and you’ve put new bedsheets on your bed and it’s just so super smooth and soft
64. The next inside joke you’ll share with someone
65. Meeting your friend’s new pets
66. Seeing your favourite band live
67. Graduating
68. Travelling to somewhere you’ve never been
69. Growing your nails out
70. Travelling back to your favourite place
71. Getting your nails (or hair) professionally done
72. Finding your purpose, even if it takes time
73. Someone paying for you to get your nails (or hair) professionally done
74. Knowing things can get better
75. A birthday card, and money falls out of it
76. Receiving a letter, message, or compliment that stays with you forever
77. Warm bread rolls with salty butter
78. The smell of a loved one’s shirt
79. Lazy mornings and slow weekends
80. Walking to the supermarket after work for a cheeky bacon roll – because they’re the best, actually
81. Getting really into a hobby
82. Ordering takeaway and it arrives before the app can tell you it’s out for delivery
83. Fireworks and celebrations
84. Going and sitting by the river for a bit, because being near water makes everything calmer
85. Random acts of kindness
86. Swimming
87. Long walks with no destination
88. Saunas
89. Building a life you once only dreamed of
90. Running
91. Wearing cosy clothes
92. Sleeping
93. Feeling safe
94. Bit niche, but feeling really rough, then throwing up, and you instantly feel so much better. You just needed to get it out.
95. Your favourite meal
96. The feeling of calm after a cry
97. Getting through something you thought would break you
98. The way a cat looks at you, when they truly love and appreciate your existence. Especially when you rescued them from a field by a busy road and they were terrified and small and so hungry and so skinny and may have died the night you brought them home, but because you found them, they now get to live to be a menace to society.
99. Creating a perfect playlist
100. That feeling when you walk off a plane and the warmth of the country you’re visiting just hits you.
101. Waking up and feeling rested
102. Holding someone’s hand
103. Watching butterflies
104. Doing the hard thing, and the relief that follows
105. Getting excited about something
106. Seeing your friend’s business succeed
107. Trying a new food, spontaneously, even though you’re a really fussy eater, and it’s not that bad actually. But you don’t want to let on, but it might soon become your new favourite meal.
108. Not getting the egg ick the next time you eat an egg
109. Orgasms.
110. When you wake up really thirsty through the night and you’ve left yourself an ice cold glass of water on your bedside and it just hits.
111. A crisp McDonald’s coke when you really need one
112. Attractive people
113. Attractive people finding you attractive
114. Donating money to charity
115. Finding a £1 outside a supermarket (hint – look by the trolleys!) and buying yourself a little small something, because why the heck not, it’s basically free.
116. The way snow looks after a night of heavy snowfall and no one’s walked through it yet
117. Waking up at 1am to enjoy fresh snow before anyone else can
118. Christmas morning
119. New Years Day, because a fresh start might be cliché, but it can help
120. Birthdays
121. The day after your birthday, when you realise that it wasn’t so bad after all
122. Feeling like a proper adult when you add a salad to your evening meal
123. Eating the salad
124. Learning to love salad dressing
125. Gifting something to someone that you know they will love – or find funny.
126. Giggling to yourself while you’re outside because you remembered something funny and you can’t quite keep a straight face
127. Full on belly laughing until your eyes water – especially if you’re with someone else doing the same
128. Stalking people you know on social media
129. Positive – finding out the people you stalked on social media are doing really well, and you’re happy for them, because they’re good people and they deserve it.
130. Negative – finding out the people you stalked on social media are doing really badly, but it makes you feel better about yourself, because they were mean anyway.